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WE HAVE A NEW SEGMENT, AND THIS IS ACTUALLY THE FIRST OF THREE THAT WE'RE ROLLING OUT! WE PRESENT TO YOU "TSFU INTERVIEWS..."! This is a new segment where Ash, Fallon and friend of the podcast Chauntee Pitts will interview survivors, authors and all sorts of other incredible guests!

In this first conversation, Ash and Shelly Snow Pordea discuss Shelly's new book, 'The Cheating Wife,' which explores the themes of abuse, control, and the patriarchy within the context of a fictional story. They also touch on their own experiences with religious cults and the importance of raising awareness about the treatment of women within these systems. Shelly emphasizes the need for informed consent and proper training for counselors within religious organizations.

The conversation highlights the importance of challenging societal norms and promoting empathy and understanding. Ash and Shelly also discuss the harmful messages and beliefs perpetuated by religious institutions, particularly regarding gender roles and sexuality. They explore the damaging effects of the patriarchy and the pressure it puts on both men and women. Shelly shares her personal experiences growing up in a strict religious environment and how it influenced her writing. They also touch on the importance of finding a safe and supportive community and the need to ask questions and challenge dogma.


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Ash and Fallon wrap up "Psychotic Psychology" and the insane story of Project MKUltra. 

During the early Cold War and Korean Wars, in the late '40s and early '50s, the CIA became a super paranoid and obsessed spy agency, working on the notion that communists might have perfected some kind of a drug or technique that could control the human mind.  Project MKUltra lasted through the '50s and '60s (at least that's what they want us to think) and killed many people and destroyed countless lives.

Wait... the CIA is shady AF? Yep, and you probably didn't know just how unscrupulous until now.


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-Audio editing by Tina Lukic.

The Troubled Teen Industry is finally getting the exposure that it deserves! Ash and Fallon break down the third episode, and there's some good news at the end of this one!

In the final episode, "Follow the Money", we find that, "with programs around the globe and exorbitant tuition, money was rolling in — but where was it going? A trail of dodgy dealings leads TO THE TOP." - Netflix

Omg y'all finally someone said it besides me... every freaking time!


The Program: Cons, Cults, and Kidnapping: "Years after being sent to a disciplinary school, a woman who is haunted by her experiences decides to expose the corruption and abuse of the troubled teen industry." - Netflix

TW: child abuse of every kind.



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-Audio editing by Tina Lukic and Dallas Hernandez

"Years after being sent to a disciplinary school, a woman who is haunted by her experiences decides to expose the corruption and abuse of the troubled teen industry." - Netflix

The Program: Cons, Cults, and Kidnapping is in the worldwide top ten on Netflix for a very good reason! The Troubled Teen Industry is finally getting the exposure that it deserves! Fallon breaks down episode two.

In "Mind Control", we see that "daily life at Ivy Ridge involved cult-like tactics, a rules system with excessive punishments, and family reps incentivized to keep teens in the program." - Netflix

TW: child abuse of every kind.


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-Audio editing by Gaytrice Perdue.

"Years after being sent to a disciplinary school, a woman who is haunted by her experiences decides to expose the corruption and abuse of the troubled teen industry." - Netflix

"The Program: Cons, Cults, and Kidnapping" is in the worldwide top ten on Netflix for a very good reason! The Troubled Teen Industry is finally getting the exposure that it deserves! Ash tells Fallon about the first episode in this explosive 3-part docuseries.

In "Where The F**k Am I?", we see "former students of the Academy at Ivy Ridge return to the now-shuttered school and reflect on the horrors they endured during the time in the program." - Netflix

TW: child abuse of every kind.



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-Audio editing by Dallas Hernandez.

Ashley and Cam talk about abusive boarding "school" and ranch, Circle of Hope! Jeepers Creepers!

Cam covers Independent Fundamental Baptist boarding schools, the "troubled teen" industry and Boyd Householder's jobs leading up to opening Circle of Hope. Ashley goes over the horrors that took place at Circle of Hope for 14 years, including the physical, mental, emotional and sexual abuse of hundreds of young girls.

The gals had the pleasure of speaking with Amanda Householder, daughter of owners Boyd and Stephanie Householder, and you'll get to hear some of that interview throughout the episode! They also discuss the recent shut down due to Amanda's tireless efforts, as well as other survivors of Independent Fundamentalist Baptist wilderness programs and boarding schools!

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Ash and Fallon recap Gypsy's story and give an update an update on where she is now! Stay tuned, more updates to come! Ash also gives a seperate update on Gypsy's insane social media growth, who her husband is, and what her plans are!

TW: Extreme child abuse.

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This week the gals discuss murderer Alferd Packer aka The Colorado Cannibal, a pick by one of our GURU level Patrons Michelle. Jeepers Creepers!

Ash covers the most famous cannibal from the state where she lives, Colorado! Alferd or Alfred Packer, history is unclear, was a prospector and "wilderness guide" during the 1800s. Packer led five men on a deadly trek into the snowy Colorado mountains, a trip from which none of them would return. Was he a mad murderer or was he just really incompetent with his wilderness skills? Did Packer murder them for financial gain? Or was the fella just hungry? Listen to today's episode and let us know what you think!


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-Audio engineering by Evette Darensbourg and Lexi Jackson.

It's not a Listenersode, it's just an episode... but really it's our first annual TSFU V-Day Horrorsode! Here's a throwback from V-day 2022, with former co-host Cameron Dexter. Enjoy!


Hey gang and Happy belated Valentine's Day, Galentine's Day or Masturbation Day! We hope you were getting showered with affection... or burning down capitalistic buildings, and just generally enjoying that special Hallmark holiday yesterday. This week we have a special twist on a normal Listenersode, today we have dating horror stories from listeners like you!


Ash and Cam read stories from Kristine, who met a potential cult leader on a dating app, an anonymous listener who was stalked by a terrifying Todd in college and another anonymous listener whose co-worker was murdered by his step-son. Love kills y'all!


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"After a harrowing home invasion and kidnapping in 2015, a couple is accused of staging the ordeal when the woman reappears, haunting the couple with a new series of tortures." - Netflix

Netflix's new true crime docuseries is worth the watch and has a very important message. Stop treating victims as suspects.

In this episode, Ash is again joined by friend of the podcast Chauntee Pitts, this time Ash summarizes the third episode of "American Nightmare". Ash and Chauntee also discuss stuff that the doc left out, answers to questions left unrevealed and some theories that we believe definitely hold some weight!


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"After a harrowing home invasion and kidnapping in 2015, a couple is accused of staging the ordeal when the woman reappears, haunting the couple with a new series of tortures." - Netflix

Netflix's new true crime docuseries is worth the watch and has a very important message. But Ash asked and you answered! This two part episode will be a short recap of the documentary AND stuff that the doc left out, answers to questions left unrevealed and some theories that we believe definitely hold some weight!In this episode, Ash is joined by friend of the podcast Chauntee Pitts, and Chauntee brings us through the first two episodes of "American Nightmare".


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This is the story of a priest of the Congregation of Christ Baptist church in Camden, New Jersey who had his 18 year old daughter murdered for being such a "harlot". Walter Dworecki was a terrible person and unfortunately, no matter what Wanda did, she didn't stand a chance...

Special thank you to all of our new Patrons! Thank you for joining our CultFam: Jennifer, Taylor, Stacy, Patricia, Suzy, Elena, Kelly, Alex, Kendra, Danita, Erin, Sierra, Olivia, Misty, Ashley, Selena, Rebecca, Mallory, Hope, Annie, Emily, Sharyn, Jessica and Jenna!

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"Natalia and Michael square off again in a no-holds-barred confrontation. Natalia is looking for more than answers from Michael, and she wants evidence and admissions to the abuses she suffered at the hands of Michael and Kristine." - Amazon

Ash is joined by cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts for 4 out of 6 of these episodes! Find the intensely brainy and hilarious Tay on her IG!

TW: Extreme child abuse.


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"Natalia returns to the Barnett's house of horrors as she confronts the neighbor who turned her back on her. Kristine's nefarious plan to get rid of Natalia now includes taking down Michael as well. Natalia prepares to confront Michael again." - Amazon

TW: Extreme child abuse.


🚨THIS IS FROM YOUTUBE LIVE AND WILL HAVE SOME AUDIENCE INTERACTION. IT'S ALSO UNEDITED BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET GYPSY AND NATALIA'S STORIES TO Y'ALL ASAP!
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"Natalia details the horrifying multi-faceted conspiracy by the Barnetts to get rid of her. From having Natalia re-aged as an adult to attempting to institutionalize her, there was nothing the Barnetts would not try to rid themselves of Natalia." - Amazon

TW: Extreme child abuse.


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“In an explosive confrontation, Natalia demands answers from Michael about why they adopted her. Law enforcement officials involved in the case answer questions about the Barnetts' true motivations behind adopting Natalia.” - Amazon

Ash is joined by cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts for 4 out of 6 of these episodes! Find the intensely brainy and hilarious Tay on her IG!

TW: Extreme child abuse.


🚨THIS IS FROM YOUTUBE LIVE AND WILL HAVE SOME AUDIENCE INTERACTION. IT'S ALSO UNEDITED BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET GYPSY AND NATALIA'S STORIES TO Y'ALL ASAP!
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“In a jaw-dropping premiere, Natalia attempts to fill the missing pieces of her life by learning the truth about her age. Meanwhile, shocking new information reveals that the Barnetts knew more about Natalia when they adopted her than they ever let on.” - Amazon

Ash is joined by cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts for 4 out of 6 of these episodes! Find the intensely brainy and hilarious Tay on her IG!

TW: Extreme child abuse.


🚨THIS IS FROM YOUTUBE LIVE AND WILL HAVE SOME AUDIENCE INTERACTION. IT'S ALSO UNEDITED BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET GYPSY AND NATALIA'S STORIES TO Y'ALL ASAP!
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"Less than two weeks before her wedding, cold feet and past loves haunt Gypsy and threaten her impending nuptials. While some family members plead with Gypsy to postpone the wedding, her fiance meets with them and argues otherwise. With the biggest day of her life drawing near, Gypsy faces her greatest fears: does she deserve to be happy, and will she ever find a lasting love?" - Lifetime


TW: Extreme child abuse.


Watch The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard on Lifetime!


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"Gypsy reveals a life-changing secret she’s been keeping from even her closest family members: she is engaged to be married. While she and her fiance divulge the intimate details of their friendship turned romance–and their upcoming prison wedding–Gypsy recalls appearing in court for her mother’s murder as her life of lies unfolds before a stunned community." - Lifetime


TW: Extreme child abuse.


Watch out for recaps of episode 6, coming out tomorrow! Episodes 1-5 out now!

Watch The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchardon Lifetime!


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"Desperate to escape her mother, Dee Dee, Gypsy turns to Nick Godejohn, her long-distance boyfriend from a Christian dating site. The young couple hatches a plan to murder Dee Dee and be together forever. As Gypsy recalls the details of that fateful night, she goes before the parole board and learns whether she’ll get an early release from prison." - Lifetime


TW: Extreme child abuse.


Watch The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard on Lifetime!


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"After running away, Gypsy is lured home by her mother with promises of freedom and independence. Behind closed doors, Dee Dee chains Gypsy to the bed and uses witchcraft to put a voodoo hex on her daughter. With no end in sight from a life of abuse and fear, a desperate Gypsy pulls a loaded gun on her mother leading to a shocking turn of events." - Lifetime

TW: Extreme child abuse.

Watch The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard on Lifetime!



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Listen to Ash and Fallon break down the second episode of the six part docu-series on Lifetime!
"When Hurricane Katrina devastates Louisiana, Gypsy and her mother, Dee Dee, are relocated to Springfield, Missouri. There, Gypsy comes to the grim realization she's addicted to pain medication. And when Gypsy runs away to be with her new boyfriend, there will be hell to pay." - Lifetime

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"On the eve of Gypsy Rose Blanchard's parole hearing, after spending nearly seven years in prison for the murder of her mother, she is ready to share shocking revelations and disturbing secrets for the first time. The now 31-year-old takes us into her earliest childhood memories of unfounded medical conditions and allegations of sexual abuse." - Lifetime

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Watch The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard on Lifetime!

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Join Ash and Fallon for an update on Gypsy Rose! The gals talk about Ash's previous episode on Gypsy, her mother DeeDee's extreme manipulation of medical professionals, and the DSM's (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) new term for Munchausen Syndrom by Proxy (MSBP), Facticious Disorder Imposed on Another (FDIA).

They also talk about the new Lifetime documentary that just came out, "The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard" (BINGE OR BUST RECAPS COMING SOON), how Gypy's socials have grown from 112 thousand to far over 10 million followers in a week*, and what she plans to use her new found fame for!

*Follower count on episode may be lower because it's growing so quickly between Instagram and TikTok that we can't keep track!
*As of 1/7/23 she is at 16.3 MILLION followers on TikTok and Instagram!!

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Join Ash as she chats with Nick Thompson from "Love is Blind" S2 about what really goes on behind the scenes on reality romance shows. Probably on other reality shows too, but that's not what we're talking about. Fallon and Ash released an episode called "Coercion: Romance Reality TV, Culty AF" last week, which is a great prerequisite to this episode!

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As we all know, unless you were living under a rock which is cool too, the '90s took 2023 by storm. Butterfly clips, gigantic pants, Ed Hardy and Juicy all unfortunately came back, so let's bring back some of the cool stuff from the '90s too... like the crimes we alllll remember!

This week, Ash tells Fallon about Tonya Harding and her infamous rivalry with fellow figure skater, Nancy Kerrigan. Tonya Harding was and is one of the most talented figure skaters to have graced the ice, but she was always a little too poor and rough around the edges for this glamour world's liking. But Tonya is less remembered for her triple axels, and more for Nancy Kerrigan's injury to the leg, right above the knee. But just how much responsibility did Tonya actually have in this incident?


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-Research assistance by Elizabeth Vandenbosch.
-Audio editing by Gaytrice Perdue.

-Sources:
https://www.biography.com/athletes/tonya-harding
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tonya_Harding
https://www.oregonencyclopedia.org/articles/harding_tonya/#:~:text=Although%20Harding%20was%20never%20convicted,to%20conspiring%20to%20hinder%20prosecution.
https://www.9and10news.com/2023/01/06/today-in-history-nancy-kerrigan-was-attacked-at-michigan-icearena/#:~:text=Harding%20was%20jealous%20of%20Kerrigan,life%20from%20U.S.%20Figure%20Skating.
https://people.com/movies/tonya-harding-was-involved-up-to-her-neck-in-the-nancy-kerrigan-attack-says-oregon da/#:~:text=The%20case%20against%20Harding%20was,a%20second%20attempt%20in%20Detroit.
https://www.nytimes.com/2018/01/10/movies/tonya-harding-i-tonya-nancy-kerrigan-scandal.html
https://people.com/movies/the-true-life-story-behind-i-tonya-inside-the-figure-skating-scandal-that-shocked-the-world/
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- https://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-srv/sports/longterm/olympics1998/history/timeline/timeline.htm
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- https://nbcsportsgrouppressbox.com/2014/02/19/nancy-tonya-debuts-sunday-feb-23-at-7-pm-et6-pm-ct-on-nbc-on-20th-anniversary-of-1994-winter-olympics-figure-skating-competition/
- https://www.nytimes.com/2018/01/10/movies/tonya-harding-i-tonya-nancy-kerrigan-scandal.html
- https://people.com/movies/tonya-harding-was-involved-up-to-her-neck-in-the-nancy-kerrigan-attack-says-oregon-da/
- https://www.oregonencyclopedia.org/articles/harding_tonya/
- https://www.9and10news.com/2023/01/06/today-in-history-nancy-kerrigan-was-attacked-at-michigan-ice-arena/
- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Toe_loop_jump

Remember Amy Carlson? Called herself Mother God and was found deceased wrapped in a sleeping bag and Christmas lights, with her eyes covered in glitter?! Trevin from "Live, Laugh, Larceny" and I went live a couple of weeks ago to talk about the last two episodes of "Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God".

"Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God chronicles the life and death of Amy Carlson, also known as Mother God, a self-proclaimed spiritual savior who built a cult through her online manifestos and live-streaming sessions. As Amy's health declined, her followers believed her death would lead to her evacuation by UFO and salvation for humanity. Told through the eyes of Amy’s devotees and constructed from the cult’s archival footage, the three-part docuseries captures the perils of internet proselytizing and a conspiracy-driven faith." - HBO

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Remember Amy Carlson? Called herself Mother God and was found deceased wrapped in a sleeping bag and Christmas lights, with her eyes covered in glitter?! Marilyn Honig from @coffeecultsandcrafts on YouTube and I went live a couple of weeks ago to talk about the first two episodes of "Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God"."

"Love Has Won: The Cult of MotherGod chronicles the life and death of Amy Carlson, also known as Mother God, a self-proclaimed spiritual savior who built a cult through her online manifestos and live-streaming sessions. As Amy's health declined, her followers believed her death would lead to her evacuation by UFO and salvation for humanity. Told through the eyes of Amy’s devotees and constructed from the cult’s archival footage, the three-part docuseries captures the perils of internet proselytizing and a conspiracy-driven faith." - HBO

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We've been teasing this episode for awhile and here it finally is! Sarah Edmonson is a survivor of and whistleblower for the NXIVM cult. She now hosts the podcast A Little Bit Culty with her husband and fellow NXIVM whistleblower Nippy Aims, where they discuss cults and coercive groups with survivors and experts. She also wrote the bestselling book Scarred: The True Story of How I Escaped NXIVM, the Cult that Bound My Life!

This week, she's here to talk with Ash and Alex about how NXIVM compares to Scientology! They also play cult bingo, and Sarah and Alex discuss how they "sold their cults"!


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Have you seen "May December" on Netflix? Hot garbage in our opinion... we really don't even know what that movie was trying to convey. This is an incredibly important story though. Ash recently spoke with Independent Fundamentalist Baptist (IFB) cult survivors, siblings Shelly Snow Pordea and Jon Snow on our YouTube channel (episode was also available slightly edited as audio only). Jon was incredibly brave and open and honest about his own abuse and we all agreed that the abuse of boys and men needs to be talked about much more than it is.

Find out more about Shelly here: https://www.shellysnowpordea.com/ and find Jon at https://linktr.ee/snoman74/! Follow Shelly and Jon on IG @Shellysnowpordea and @the_jon_snow!

In August of 2022, Ash and Michelle talked about the grooming of Vili Fualaau by his sixth grade teacher Mary Kay Letourneau.Michelle told Ash about the extremely inappropriate emotional and physical relationship between 34 year old elementary school teacher Mary Kay Letourneau and her 12 year old student, Vili Fualaau. They eventually got married and had children, but Mary Kay obviously always held the power. In this episode we'd like to highlight that women can absolutely be predators as well.

Trigger Warning for this episode and the YouTube interview: sexual abuse of children.


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Hey friends, have you heard yet that we're now live on YOUTUBE?! That's right, you can finally see our faces!*

TW: Basically all of the kinds of abuse possible.

Join Ash as she speaks with siblings Shelly Snow Pordea and Jon Snow, who both grew up in the Independent Fundamentalist Baptist (IFB) sect. Both are incredible survivors and advocates, and Shelly is also an author and Jon is an actor! The three chat about the new Investigation Discovery documentary "Let Us Prey", the rampant abuse of boys and men in the church that's rarely discussed and how the duo have worked hard to heal in their own ways.

Find out more about Shelly here: https://www.shellysnowpordea.com/ and find Jon at https://linktr.ee/snoman74/! Follow Shelly and Jon on IG @Shellysnowpordea and @the_jon_snow!

To find amazing support and resources around spiritual abuse visit https://www.igotout.org/ and https://www.tearsofeden.org/!

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We have a special episode for y'all today in honor of HBO's release of Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God. This puppy is from the Patreon Vault, enjoy!

Today we're taking you alllll the way back to May of 2021 when Ash and one of her amazing former co-hosts Cam talked about Colorado cult Love Has Won! At the time of the recording, "Mother God" had been found dead just weeks prior. It's not been two and half years and a great documentary just came out on HBO!

Check out the YouTube LIVE we did recently to talk about the documentary!

Watch Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God here!

Ash covers Love Has Won and the mysterious death of its leader Amy Carlson, aka "Mother God". Before her death, Mother God was a belligerent and abusive alcoholic who claimed to be paralyzed from the waist down (videos prove otherwise). She and her group, including Jason Castillo, one of many "Father God"s over the years, had been doing daily livestreams on YouTube since the mid 2000s, gaining followers by selling magical phone healing sessions, "god squad" apparel, etc... the usual. But it appears that Love Has Lost, as Carlson's mummified corpse was found wrapped in a sleeping bag and Christmas lights, with glitter surrounding her hollow eye sockets, in a makeshift shrine less than three weeks ago.

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The Twin Flames Universe (CULT) is on fire! Amazon recently came out with Desperately Seeking Soulmate: Escaping Twin Flames and Netflix came out with Escaping Twin Flames today!
Back in August of 2022, Ash and Michelle talked about the insane cult that's supposedly trying to help people find their super soulmates aka Twin Flames.

Michelle talked about a truly insidious group, Twin Flames Universe. These asshats took a very old concept and have sold it to thousands, claiming that everyone has a "twin flame" and that you should pursue you twin flame no matter what, even if they take out a restraining order against you. There are also too many women in the group, so leaders are coercing other members into sex changes. Join them as they break down this dumpster fire.

Ash will go LIVE on YOUTUBE soon to do an update on what she's learned since last year's episode came out!

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Happy Halloween Cultlings! It's TSFU's third annual Spookysode, how exciting!

Today, Ash and Fallon bring you anonymous stories from listeners around the globe! Murders, terrifying nightmares and ghosts. All of the spooky Halloween stuff. Be safe out there tonight friends!


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Tristan Redman is a journalist who doesn’t believe in ghosts. But weird things happened in his teenage bedroom – weirder than normal. When, years later, he discovers subsequent occupants of his family home say they have been visited by the ghost of a faceless woman, he’s curious. It just so happens that the house Tristan grew up in is right next door to the house where his wife’s great grandmother, Naomi Dancy, was murdered – killed by two gunshots to the face. Could there be a connection? Tristan decides to investigate and soon finds himself where no son-in-law should ever be: delving deep into his wife’s family history asking questions no-one wants answered. Wondery and Pineapple Street Studios present Ghost Story — a seven-part podcast series about family secrets, overwhelming coincidence, and the things that come back to haunt us.

Follow Ghost Story on the Wondery App or wherever you get your podcasts. You can binge all episodes of Ghost Story ad-free right now by joining Wondery Plus. Listen HERE now!

Follow MrBallen’s Medical Mysteries wherever you get your podcasts. You can binge the first 8 episodes, early and ad-free on Amazon Music. Download the Amazon Music app today.

The human body is a miracle. But when it’s not working, it can be the stuff of nightmares. On this new series from master storyteller MrBallen, we’re sharing medical horror stories and diagnostic mysteries that are surgically calibrated to make your blood run cold.

From bizarre, unheard-of diseases and miraculous recoveries to strange medical mishaps and unexplainable deaths — you’ll never hear the phrase “heart-stopping” in the same way again. MrBallen’s Medical Mysteries is a first of its kind collaboration between MrBallen and Wondery, the award-winning company behind Dr. Death. Listen Here Now!

In its fifth season, TSFU Presents centered around the world's most terrifying dolls. CULTOBER seemed like a really appropriate time to re-release these little devils out into the world, and for y'all to re-familiarize yourself with our behind the scenes team!

In the cold, dark January of this year, Ash was joined by audio editor Gaytrice Perdue and audio editor, researcher and now co-host Ryan Pregent, as they discuss probably the most haunted doll in existence, Robert the Doll! This child sized doll has been cursing people left and right since the early 1900's. Robert was initially owned by a little boy who had a lifelong "friendship" (obsession) with him, and after switching owners a couple of times, he now resides in the Fort East Martello Museum in Key West, FL. There are some rules to follow if you go visit Robert, and if you don't, you could be in for some grave consequences. Robert receives thousands of letters from people apologizing for being disrespectful or not following the rules, begging him to remove the curse.

We have our second annual TSFU team retreat coming up on Thursday 10/12 and we'll be in Miami so we're swinging down to Key West to meet Robert while we're there! Pray for us.


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It's CULTOBER day 5 and we're releasing an especially terrifying episode from the Patreon Vault.

This was a Patreon exclusive segment that Cam Dexter used to host called Dexter's Conjectures! This is a topic that more people need to be made aware of, and an especially important episode for anyone with young children who they care about in their lives!

Back in December of 2021, Cam took us into the extremely odd and disgusting world of the little known internet phenomenon called Elsagate. YouTube Kids says that it “provides a more contained environment for kids to explore YouTube and makes it easier for parents and caregivers to guide their journey", but unfortunately their algorithm hasn't been able to block out some particularly heinous content brought to us by.... pedophiles, people with really disturbing paraphelias, internet trolls and possibly a global ring of puppet masters who want to control and severely desensitize the next generation?! Or maybe it’s just pure greed. Join us as we dive into this dark and inexplicable section of YouTube.

Check out what Cam's been up to on her website!

TW: graphic descriptions of extremely disturbing YouTube videos and child abuse!


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Get in loser, we're going dueling. Welcome to CULTOBER day 2! Today we go back to October of last year when Ash and Michelle talked about the vampire panic of the UK in the 60's and the Highgate Cemetery Vampire!⁠

Satanic cult rituals, a haunted pub, media frenzy and a decades-long duel between celeb wizards about what was haunting the famous Highgate Cemetery!⁠


Check out Michelle talking about slaying some Nazis with our friend Dawn Brody, from HILF: History I'd Like To Fuck here!

Do you want to be featured on this month's CULTOBER Spookysode!? Send us your stories to tsfuthepodcast@gmail.com!


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What if you were trafficked into a cult...or were mauled by a grizzly bear...or were stabbed 27 times by a serial killer - what would you do? This is Actually Happening brings you extraordinary true stories of life-changing events told by the people who lived them. In their newest season, you’ll hear from a man who watched as his wife developed 21 new identities, or the women who began seeing demons everywhere inhabiting people, including her own son. These stories will have you on the edge of your seat waiting to hear what happens next.

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Ash and Cam are back and ready for a gangbuster new season! On the first episode of season 3 the gals talk about the infamous Watts family murders! Jeepers Creepers!

Like most of America, we recently watched Netflix's American Murder: The Family Next Door, and needed to take a much deeper dive. Ash talks about Chris and Shanann's earlier years together, their involvement with MLM scheme Thrive, and the events that led up to the murder of pregnant Shanann and her 3 and 4 year old daughters. Cam covers the affair that Chris claims led him to commit the heinous murders, as well as his sentencing, and what role social media played in his getting caught.


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It's almost Halloween, so the gals talked about one of the creepiest things of all... Killer Clowns! Jeepers Creepers!

Cam covers serial killer John Wayne Gacy. Gacy was a part time birthday party clown named "Pogo", and KFC franchise owner, who nicknamed himself "The Colonel". He was a full time psycho, who raped and murdered at least 33 young men in the 70's.

Ashley goes over the history of when clowns became so scary, as well as the killer clown epidemics that have periodically sprung up since Gacy's reign of terror, leading to the killer clown pandemic of 2016.


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Ashley and Cam talk about Hungarian train bomber Szilveszter Matuska and family annihilator Count Xavier Dupont de Ligonnès, who both killed multiple people and got away! Jeepers Creepers!

Cam tells the story of Szilveszter Matuska who blew up not one, but two trains in Europe in the 30s, killing 20-30 people, and injuring more than 120.

Ashley covers French Count Xavier Dupont de Ligonnès, who killed his wife, four children, and two dogs in 2011, before sending out letters to family and friends saying that the family was going into the witness protection program in the United States, and disappearing seemingly into thin air.


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Ash and Cam finally cover the highly requested serial killer Ed Kemper! Jeepers Creepers!

Cam goes over Ed's abusive childhood, including the basement he slept in as a kid, and how he killed his grandparents and wound up in a mental institution at 15. Ashley talks about the 8 women that Ed murdered from 1972-1973, including his own mother, as well as his life in prison narrating audiobooks, and assisting FBI Supervisory Special Agents John Douglas and Robert Ressler as they developed what is now known as offender profiling for the FBI Behavioral Science Unit.

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