The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about flashbacks - the most known symptom of PTSD - and wrongly assumed to be a central requirement for having any form of PTSD. Flashbacks are often referred to something along the lines of “having flashbacks like I have PTSD”. But unlike what many think it is only a severe symptom and not a requirement for PTSD. It is a sign that PTSD is in its more severe stages and needs to be addressed NOW.We first talk about what are flashba...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how abusers keep control over us - even long after we are out of that situation it can still apply. Especially if we were children at the time and we learned this to be “normal”. We need to understand to recognize and unlearn it.We first talk about abuse language, then always on edge, then redefining normal, then always assumed guilty, then sabotaging skills, then sugar and pain and then isolation.https://www.choosingtherapy.com/narcis...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about fate - in particular about the fate of those marked by trauma. Are we bound to be victims or abusers? That is a question I am sure many of you have asked when only these 2 fates seem to be available. But there is more.We first talk about how it starts, then the roadblocks, then the destructive outcomes, then the productive outcomes and then how it ends. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about what a healthy relationship looks like. The perfect relationship depends - of course - on your preferences, life and so much more. That is a science of and on itself. We just focus on a healthy relationship, that has the best chances to last and bring you happiness. We first talk about communication, then respect, then shared values and goals, then conflict, then support and then emotional stabilityContact: contactme@johannadraconis.co...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we talk about how love is not enough.Though this episode is going to be a bit different again, because - for one - it is something that is so deeply painful and hard to accept - that it is very difficult to talk about it. A deep wound almost all of us share. Some in great - some in lesser extent.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode170Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.c...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about building up your support system - especially about solutions until new relationships are possible, which I forgot to address last time and offered just an answer, but not a solution. Your healing progress is a long journey - and good company makes it a lot easier and enjoyable.We first talk about online groups, then online games, then animals and then local groups.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadr...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about being ready for a healthy relationship - a burning question for most. Which is understandable as a partner is invaluable in life - be it a romantic or platonic partner.We first talk about stable situation, then emotional range, then taking care of others and then the checklist.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode168Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.c...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about achieving this new “me” that seems often so far away and some even believe is a myth. Or are you trying to return to your old true self? Both follow the same path that seems to be so hard if not impossible to find. But today we really focus on the steps to take to achieve the new “me” - if you never had a healthy one - or return to your true “me” - if the experience has thrown you off your path. We first talk about changing takes time,...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about emotions once again, but this time about loosing control over them. That can take many forms and is sadly usually a common aspect in dealing with PTSD and also during the healing progress.We first talk about how it makes things harder, then about abusers and healthy people, then why you loose control and then how to better maintain control.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode166Cont...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about mens mental health.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode165[1] Suicide fuel/Incelhttps://incels.wiki/w/Suicidefuelhttps://www.leedsforlearning.co.uk/Pages/Download/3e2842ed-6270-4d21-9b8f-86eb72f95e98/PageSectionDocumentshttps://www.adl.org/resources/backgrounder/incels-involuntary-celibateshttps://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC10600567/[2] "Fathers who actively seek custody o...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about time and life with the questions “Do I have enough time left” and “Is my life over” - which is something I went through myself and I hear so often. It’s common to get entrapped by it - and finding the answer is hard.We first talk about why do we feel like we are running out of time, then is it too late for me, then what is lost and then where are we running.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis....

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about feeling like a child and not like an adult - often accompanied by feeling overwhelmed and lost. One of the more general issues, but also an absolute key element on recovering from trauma - especially if it happens in the childhood. Especially if neglect and parentification is involved.We first talk about are there no adults, then why being an adult is important, then why do we still feel like children and then what can we do. Contact: ...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how the mind can affect the body - and the other way around. If you keep getting sick or have this weird illness that just won’t go away, then that might be related to PTSD. I can confirm the same - the issues I had disappeared one by one during my healing progress. After years and years of riddling doctors and everyone basically. This is known as psychosomatic and very relevant to PTSD.We first talk about how does it work, then how fa...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn’t kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to talk about this for a while since I came across this review of research of Post traumatic growth or PTG where he found that genuine PTG is rare, but illusionary PTG is common. In other words the growth is not real but imagined. Wh...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn’t kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to talk about this for a while since I came across this review of research of Post traumatic growth or PTG where he found that genuine PTG is rare, but illusionary PTG is common. In other words the growth is not real but imagined. Wh...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about parents and if they were “good parents” - while there are many ways people define if someone is a good parents or not, we will - of course - focus on the trauma perspective, because it is sadly the root of many evils.The main point of this episode - helping to understand, to find and to resolve past issues.First we talk about covering the basics, then covering emotional and social needs, then what is caring love and then what does it m...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about being scared or anxious - sometimes both at the same time. Usually it’s a cry for help by your overwhelmed brain. The feeling of fear is a very familiar feeling for those dealing with PTSD and can greatly impact your healing process.We first talk about why fear is a good thing, then the brain is confused, then why the fear is so damaging and then what we can do.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraco...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about being tired - something basically everyone who deals with PTSD is familiar with it. You feel tired, low on energy or lazy - depending on perspective. But there is a good reason for it and you probably shouldn’t be too hard on yourself.We first talk about how to know it is happening, then where the energy is needed, then what you shouldn’t do and then what we can do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.jo...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about scars - or in other words - the things that remain. I often say that the experience changes us - like climbing a mountain does, but what do we have to accept as that change and what can we still change after all? Since it’s the 4th of July with a lot of veterans affected, I thought it is a good time to talk about the things that remain and how they affect us.We first talk about things that are not scars but a to do list, then what scar...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about victim blaming: This is sadly a common reality that survivors face - as well victims of all kinds of things and even if anything bad happens to you.Victim blaming means one accuses the victim that their behavior has caused it and therefor they are to be blamed for what happened. We first talk about exceptions, then reasons, then fear and then how to deal with it.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadrac...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about self confidence, feeling unlovable and loneliness. How to be self confident and able to love oneself is integral for a life with happiness and love.This is a continuation from last episode, where we talked about feeling unlovable and lonely. I strongly recommend to listen to it first. These three topics are sort of a chain reaction - you feel unlovable, that causes low self confidence and thats leads to loneliness. But how do we break ...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about feeling unlovable and to a part about loneliness - because if you feel unlovable than no matter how many people tell you that they love you - you won’t believe them. A very difficult topic, but also integral for a life with happiness and love.It is - of course - not to point fingers at anyone and call it a day, but to help you understand what happened, where it came from and what you can do. First we get into why feeling unlovable is s...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the stage between ball and ring trauma - and therefor PTSD and C-PTSD - the double trauma or macarons trauma. I mentioned before that there seems to be something missing - and now I finally pieced it together.Now the whole set is round and no longer feels incomplete. As mentioned in a past episode - there was no point in making a step called something like a big ball trauma, because that would be the same basically just in significant ...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how to remove or cut someone out of your life - the universal recommendation seems to be: Avoid contact. But that is sometimes just not an option. So what can we do in that case? How do we cut someone out, that keeps coming up in our everyday life? Keeping as much distance as possible is extremely helpful, but what else can we do? We first talk about the strings that tie us together, then why the brain refuses to let go, then...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about why it is so hard to leave someone - even if they threaten our wellbeing - or to cut them out of our lives. While the decision is logically so easy to make, it can be hard to understand why we struggle so much with it.We first talk about how relationships are formed, then why are we being drawn back in and then why cutting relationships is hard. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode1...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how a military mission can cause PTSD and what are the reasons why it could be. It is a bit of an experiment and so your feedback is especially appreciated.But for now I will give you the categories and what goes into them and you can add more details. Now these categories cover all the elements that are relevant in regards to PTSD. This is supposed to be a tool for you to use. Be it for better knowing where to look for triggers and th...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about violence and the deciding factor for something to become a trauma or even PTSD. It is important to understand what the main factors are to know what to focus on - especially when dealing with ring trauma.To truly trying to understand this we use our slapped in the face example again - this time with the violence being the focus, while the level of force stays exactly the same. We first talk about the slap in the face example, then abou...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about why emotions are more important than facts - in the healing process - something I mentioned several times, but never really gotten into in greater detail. It is one of the most crucial things to get right to cure yourself.We first start with the purpose of facts, then an example and then applying example to a trauma.The scene of "inside out" about emotions + memories mentioned:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x__NgnMBHV0Contact: contact...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk quickly about a big update that kept me quite busy and changes quite a bit.Support Group/Discord/Reddithttps://discord.io/JohannaDraconishttps://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhF https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/ Support mehttps://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/Johannadraconis Archive https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQhttps://www.youtube.com/@johannadraconis https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDarchive...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how it comes that dealing with PTSD is so much easier than C-PTSD. I usually use PTSD to include both, but there is a very significant difference in difficulty dealing with it and its quite a jump. It is important to understand the difference and how to treat the different versions. As they require different approaches - which is likely why many struggle to remove C-PTSD from their life.We first talk about this in an example, then how ...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about just wanting peace - an expression often in regards with the marathon that is the healing process. Usually the sentence “I just want peace” is said by the biggest stirrer of chaos and unrest. Usually when they are confronted about their part in the chaos. But in this case it was from a mail I received and it wasn’t the first time I heard it. It is just a sentiment of the exhaustion of this long and difficult journey to finally be over ...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about survivor’s guilt, a topic I so far skipped over as I was affected by it myself. What is survivor’s guilt? Simplified you feel guilty for surviving and that is often accompanied with strong depression and the thought process of being undeserving of living. Last time - episode 84 where I covered it - it was for validation and finding purpose as band aid. First we talk about surviving, then witnessing, then why you might struggle and last...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about people who are victims and abusers. People who suffered and made other people suffer. There are some mixed opinions about it, but I think it is important to be clear on this issue.We first talk about what is not abuse, then the difference between mistake and pattern, then why I call them traitors and lastly the consequences.(This episode might have been inspired by a couple with many projects and headlines atm). Contact: contactme...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about nightmares, which are a common occurrences and a symptom strongly associated with PTSD. An awful and tiring experience that might be able to be avoided.As I said, the nightmares that you get while suffering from PTSD are well known and they can range drastically. From relatively normal nightmares to being so terrifying that you don’t even dare to breathe when you wake up from them.We will first talk about where do the nightmares comes ...

Send us a Text Message.Hello my dears,It is this time of the year again and though a bit late, I wanted to remind you to be kind to and not so hard on yourself.This time of the year is rough especially for those who suffered losses, already feel disconnected, have a complicated family situation and so on. If you add the limited daylight and it just gets worse. Same goes for worries about paying the bills - especially this year.It is a lot. And in such times it is especially important to be pa...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a question I seen many ask themselves ”Why didn’t I see it earlier?” and having a very hard time to come to terms with it and forgiving themselves. We talked about Denial before, in Episode 37, where we talked about being in Denial about what happened. This is the next step, so to speak, where we talk about the fall out of that, when you try to to understand why you didn’t see it earlier.First we talk about the why and then the what no...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about isolation - a topic which occurs throughout, from the traumatic experience itself up to the healing process. When we talk about isolation in this episode, we refer to both the literal isolation by being separated from everyone else physically, as well as the figurative isolation where people can be around, but you are still isolated. We first talk about the fallout, then the disconnect and then about adapting.Transcript: www.joha...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about survival, which affects most affected by PTSD. When we hear usually about survival it is about being stranded on an island, the wilderness and the like - which is of course accurate. But survival also refers to the state many people affected by PTSD are in.We will first talk about surviving and then what we can do.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com So...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the question why we cry so much - especially during our healing process - and why crying is a good thing. It is an important part for getting better, but often quite confusing.There is of course some opinions about who can and can’t cry and those are absolute nonsense. Crying is an important part of a healthy human being and mental health and also very important for bonding with other people. We first start talking about why do we cry ...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about feeling hollow, which can feel like a hole inside of you - that somehow hurts.That feeling is the reason for many problems, sufferings and harmful behavior. Not just with PTSD and many are affected.The feeling hollow is quite widespread, but hardly talked about. Quite difficult to describe the feeling properly without having experienced it. This sometimes yawning void. Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Con...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the question “How could you make okay what happened?” that I heard many times and is a reason many people don’t seek help. A dangerous misconception that can leave people vulnerable and unable to move forward.The short answer to the question “How could you make okay what happened?” is that I don’t. I am not trying to make okay what happened - I am trying to make you feel okay despite what happened. First we talk about the difference an...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how during the healing process we sometimes move slow - sometimes it even feels like standing still - and sometimes fast - at least compared to the other. I covered this before during the healing wave section. This is the biggest part of your healing process - therefor I think it is important to revisit it for a different perspective. So we first talk about anger and then about sadness.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about feeling quite lost during the healing process and to be fair - it is quite a chaotic time. But the question is why and what can we do? Understanding is a huge part of it, which also helps to navigate it all.We will first talk about the order of healing, then walking the path properly and then your change along the way.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com &nb...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about 9 methods to counter PTSD - as in which methods help us go up against PTSD and fight it. Knowing how to turn the table changes almost everything.First we talk about methods for finding the enemy and then about methods how to best fight them.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.j...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about methods in case of an PTSD emergency, which is usually when the symptoms take over. A situation we try to avoid for a good reason and where mistakes are punished hard. We fill first cover the crucial first steps, then the methods used in an emergency and then the grounding method. Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.c...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about methods you can use in your everyday life. It has been years since we touched upon this and I felt like a updated version was long overdue. These are the things you can use the most - and therefor important and extremely helpful. First we talk about methods for everyday life and then resource management. Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: cont...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about maintaining hope - even in the darkest times. It is no secret that dealing with PTSD and trauma can lead to the darkest times a human can witness. Additionally recent events made a lot of people very scared. For good reason I fear.But as I said often - panic doesn’t help anyone and is not the way to go. Hope is the better way and so important during your healing progress. Now hope is once again a quite nebulous term with many interpret...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about what we can do about feeling inferior, like an impostor, a lack of self confident and the voices in your head giving you a hard time.It is important to do this, so you can life a fulfilling life, have less risk of getting in the hands of an abuser and can take better care of yourself.We talked about it last episode, about the inner voices and feeling inferior. I strongly recommend listening to that episode first. But now the interestin...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the question “Why do I feel so inferior?” or the inner voices - sometimes called inner critics. The voices that beat you down and are sometimes mistaken for the inner voice of reason or the like.In general having voices inside your head is completely normal - unless they tell you something new. We first talk about where does these voices come from and then how we change these voices.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the question “Should I commit suicide” for the third time - this time we start with sickness, then isolation, then mourning, then we get there when we get there and lastly conclusion. It is about the absolute crucial difference between “I want to end this life” and “I want to end my life”.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Song mentioned: https://www.youtube.com/...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the question “Should I commit suicide?” for the second time. This time the focus is on internal struggles or - in other words - is the call coming from the inside? Or “Does the enemy wants you to think the call is coming from the inside so you leave the house and run into the enemies arms?” We first start with depression and then the hidden outside influence. I cover next week sickness, mourning and the conclusion.Transcript: www...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about false accusations, as the Johnny Depp Amber Heard Trial is dominating the minds of people these days and there are a lot of emotions and reactions that have me quite worried.So I decided to insert this episode, while emotions seem to climb ever higher and the constant coverage triggering quite a lot of people and it being a taboo that needs to be addressed. It is hurting a lot of people and causes enormous damage.We will first talk abo...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a questions, that many of you might have asked yourself - “Should I commit suicide?”And it is a choice that can’t be undone - there is no going back. So we should be extra sure we make the right call.We first do a little thought experiment, then we talk about external struggles and how to get out of the trap. We continue next week with internal struggles and finding a solution.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about mental health again or more precisely: What it means to be mentally healthy. We will continue from the last episode with our example to better understand mental health.First we talk about abusive persons, then severe impact, then loosing sections and projects and lastly signs of things going wrong.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-121-140 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadracon...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a statement I hear all the time - “But I am totally fine! I am not crazy!” and - in case of PTSD - “I don’t have flashbacks!”. Usually coming from someone who is not totally fine and many with PTSD don’t have flashbacks. Which lead me to come up with a model to explain first how your mental and physical health are connected and how they escalate.We will talk about setting up the model, then how crazy looks like with it and then we end ...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about moving forward in your healing journey - or how to know if you are or not. As in “Am I slowing down because I need to or am I just lazy?” That is a good question that likely many asked themselves - including me.Since pacing and managing your energy is such a crucial point - it is important that we know.First we talk about having the same response, then trigger response despite making progress and about one trigger not moving forward do...

Send us a Text Message.IntroHello my dears,My name is Johanna, and I welcome you to the Johanna Draconis - The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD podcast. This episode will be something a bit different and we will talk about dealing with hopelessness, helplessness, despair, suffering and anger - in light of the Ukraine Conflict sadly.I had a complete different episode planned, but recent events can’t be ignored and I apologize for my voice in advance.Prelude: The recent situationI will keep it brief, b...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about what I hinted at last time and as requested - we will go more into detail and talk about dismantling these sort of traumas. The method or tool is - of course - also helpful for any other trauma or situation. It is crucial and can be a game/life changer.So first we will talk about the structure of trauma, then going against the outer defenses and then working towards the core.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120&nbs...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the statement “you just don’t get over something like that” - as I keep running into it and which causes so much harm and can lead to the worst outcomes. It is a topic very close to my heart and connected to this podcast.Therefore it is important we take some time and question this statement - which is long overdue. First we talk about how we reach this sentiment, where it can lead to and then what can help.Transcript: www.johann...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about kind of one of the things that keep popping up every new year: New years resolutions. Or more precisely we talk about how to make change last.We first get into why people with PTSD struggle to make change happen and then how to make it work. Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconi...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a topic that might came up during the holidays: Lagging behind everyone else.It is hard to not compare oneself with the others. Even if we know better than to do that. The heart gets heavy and we are often reminded, that we are behind in our plans.ometimes it seems like the others are running past you and you just seem not to get into gear. Nothing anyone likes to really talk about - it is rather embarrassing and quite a lot of shame i...

Send us a Text Message.Hello my dears,Another year has gone by and it feels like barely any time passed and the whole world changed at the same time.This is the darkest time of the year - for the northern hemisphere at least. For many this is also the most joyous time of the year - the food, the lights, the celebrations or whatever makes the holiday season special for them.But many of who are struggling, be it PTSD or something else, find it often to be the hardest time of the year.Not only i...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about something else a bit - we are going through the first steps you can take to find the trigger core and the root of the problem. I try to make it a sort of starting point tutorial. I thought loss was an universal known topic to everyone - so a good start. We start with the why questions regarding missing then with what if questions.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com&nbsp...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how your living environment affects you. We talked last week about finding yourself at the bottom again - which is often reflected by our surrounding. Especially our place where we live. And often at rock bottom… is it most likely a mess. Which is why we first talk about how this feedback can turn into a trap and then what you can do about it - be it by yourself or with help from others.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about finding yourself at the bottom again where you never wanted to be again and the shame that is usually part of it and the reluctance to get help in that moment. That is why we first talk about why it is so hard and then things that might help to get out of there.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: w...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about once again about feeling nothing regarding a trauma, but this time we talk about what was hinted on before: Why feeling nothing regarding what happened to you is actually a very bad sign.And since so many ignore it and suffer because of that - it is time we cover it.irst we will talk and explain the mechanism and then what you can do and a short “how to start” at the end.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 C...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a topic that came up during my time at “live from America Podcast “ last weekend, which turned from therapeutic abuse to a conversation about C-PTSD.We talked - VERY briefly - about what the therapy for PTSD should look like and I feel like I didn’t do it proper justice and wanted to explain it better, because I do think it is very important to clear things up.We first talk about what it should feel like, which type of therapy, then go...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about therapeutic abuse again - this time about the why it is such a problem. Besides the obvious of course, that abuse in general is a problem. But this abuse is taboo, people don’t know what is right and wrong.The reason I picked this topic this time is a rather unusual one: I am going to be on the “live from America Podcast “ where we are going to talk about therapeutic abuse in the episode released next Tuesday on the 5th of October. You...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about trauma behavior, as it is often confused with triggers. And while they are at times annoying - they are not triggers nor are they are sign of bad health. A side effect of your experiences.But they do cause a lot of confusion, uncertainty and muddy the water. So let us talk about it.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWeb...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about something that keeps popping up: If that caused my PTSD why don’t I feel strongly about it? This is a good question to ask. As this can lead you down a complete false path and severely sabotage your healing journey. We are looking into two variants of a small trauma activating the big one and then some ways to find the hidden trauma.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com &...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about Introspection, one of the most useful tools you ever get in your life in general - not just for PTSD. It is the same base mechanic EMDR uses and helps you to process anything so much faster and more. So it is VERY useful. We talk first about how to get into it and then how to best use it in regards to PTSD.EMDR studies:https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6106867/ (overview)https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27744424/ (Regarding e...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a very sobering moment in your healing journey that is sadly also reflected in real life. The question “Was it all for nothing?” is a deeply dark question that can make you very easily very bitter. Or worse.It is one of the key moments in your healing journey, where you can easily get stuck, and one of the hardest and most painful things to open up about. So let us talk about it.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the question “Why can’t I just be normal again?” - which is something heard throughout the journey - from start to finish - and one of the reasons why people can’t progress on the healing journey.Which is why it so crucial we address it and spill the tea - as the saying goes. So let us talk about itTranscript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadrac...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about bad people doing good things, which I know is a complicated and loaded topic on its own, but under our circumstances it turns into a complete mine field.I am talking about the person who causes so much suffering doing good things. Sometimes even great things. It is a taboo we need to talk about, as we have to properly sort it out before we can move on - as conflicting as it can be.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-1...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a topic that is the reason why many don’t seek help or accept they have PTSD or the like. “They were good people”. Sometimes even stating that they have no bad intentions. Sadly, that matters little - only what happened does.So we talk this time, about good people doing bad things and why that doesn’t necessarily makes them bad people or anything less true.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact: contact...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we do things a little bit different. With this being the 100th episode, I thought it would be a good time to redo the introduction, as quite a bit has changed since then. We will go chronically from my earliest years to the most recent perspective. I will summarize a lot to keep the size manageable and try to avoid being graphic or anything the like. This should help not to overwhelm people.I have more information in episode 1 and there will be more on t...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about - bad days. A rather uncomfortable topic and something everyone of us would rather avoid, but sadly is a significant part in your healing journey.It is something we need to be open and honest about, especially with ourselvesIt is frightening, unsettling and demotivating, which is why we talk today about 5 points to help you hopefully to better deal with bad days.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: co...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a question that I had on my mind ever since I started fighting back against PTSD. Why do people think PTSD can’t be cured? There are though things that keep people from being cured, which is important to know. I have yet to meet a person I thought was a hopeless case on principle. I met a lot of people who were stuck and therefor ended up giving up. Which is understandable but was not necessary.But how do people get stuck and even wors...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about trauma again, this time about where to separate them and when they are actually belong together.Usually the trauma get separated by the time that passed between them and then what form the trauma took. So we first talk about common vs sporadic and then how different form of abuse result in different form of traumas.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Co...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about suicide - focusing on those left behind and the coping with the suicide of another person.It is important as we need to talk about it but it is still often taboo. We first will talk about how PTSD/Depression warps ones sense of reality and then why it is not your fault.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Useful site: https://www.speakingofsuici...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about something that is the question at the core of the illness: When does a trauma become PTSD? And when doesn’t it?This also covers why some traumas cause some people PTSD but not others.And this leads us to the factors that determine the size of the trauma, first we get into the factors of the person affected and then the factors of the trauma itself.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johanna...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about something I skimmed over only before - how it comes that trauma take what shape. What factors lead to what kind of trauma (core)?This is mainly so you can identify if what you experienced counts towards trauma and/or for what shape and therefor category it belongs to.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about triggers once again - this time we differentiate between two different kind of triggers and how to identify them and how they can be helpful.Last time I left out that there are different kind of triggers and you should handle them differently. We first get into the emotions trigger and then into the trauma trigger.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Co...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about something that I keep running into: What is the difference between healed and cured? What does it mean to be cured? What are the other stages that lead up to it? We will go through the stages and we start with hidden, then we continue with uncontrolled, contained, healed and - finally - cured.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johann...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about why separating PTSD in categories (stages in the last episodes) is so important and needed for everyone involved. A system of categories that tell the patients where they are, so they know what to expect and what they need.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/a...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the two final shapes of trauma and also update the sleeper trauma as it has changed quite a bit and then we going to get into the new shapes of Cluster Trauma and Sea Urchin.This belongs to my effort to categorize and organize PTSD and Trauma and PTS so people are better informed of what they need and more tailored help can be organized. So let us talk about it.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: con...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the question that is important to the way we treat PTSD and in society: Is there a difference between military and civilian trauma? Luckily it is no longer a question if only soldiers get PTSD, but there have been some muddied water and confusion on those different situations. I think it is very important to understand this point, as this leads to confusion and to a lot of dead ends. So let us shed some light and talk about it.Transcri...

Send us a Text Message.Hello my dears,I’m sorry to say that I just can’t record an episode.Down with a nasty cold, which sadly makes my voice not work properly… and recording the episode in cough code would take a bit too long.I am mostly fine, which is why I HAD hoped I could record it in time, but alas it was not meant to be and I had to admit defeat, as much as I hate it. Hope you are all better than me and in a good placeTake care and watch yourselfJohannaTranscript: www.johann...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about how we end up in bad relationships - we suffering from PTSD or the like - often find that we keep having bad relationships. Be it family, friends, partner, coworker - simply any form of relationship.You are not only imagining it - it is something that is known and it is really important to understand the reason behind. This episode gives you an overview for the reasons that could be behind it.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/e...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we get into the age old question of "Why do I sabotage myself?" - or keep if you repeately doing it. Despite our best efforts we seem to run into the same issues again and again. It happens to many, but especially those affected by PTSD can end in a loop or worsening their situation or the like.So why do we do it? Why does it fail? We need to break the cycle, which starts with talking about it. So let us talk about it.Transcript: www.johannad...

Send us a Text Message.Hello my dears,I am sorry to say that I have to skip this episode again, because I am sick. I hope it is just a regular cold.I had to make the decision to push myself or to skip and this time my body made my choice clear to me.Why this is such an ongoing theme I get into in an episode soon - I plan to at least.I am really upset, that I can’t record an actual episode this time, but next time it should be all back to normal.Hope you are well and safe.Take care and watch y...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about quite a personal topic - survivor’s guilt. We will focus this episode on validation and first band aid measure. Which means we first talk about how survivor's guilt affected me and perceived it and then the first band aid I applied with success.We might get into counter measure in another episode - in case there is interest. Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com &nbs...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about something most of us go through when they start uncovering the trauma - and what it is connected with. The truth we once believe crumbles and in worst case - we are only left with rubble.This is one of the most bitter and harshest truth, but how do we go from there? Even if it just an aspect of your life that needs to change, it is good to know in what direction to head. So let us talk about it.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about why people believe liesespite evidence clearly in front of them. Be it conspiracies, groups, people that defy reality with every breath or yourself. As it is part of the denial process of your healing journey. So let us talk about itTranscript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.joha...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about the big problem that is having made PTSD a spectrum - which it became as more and more illnesses were put under that umbrella term.I want to emphasize the problem and - how it sadly affects you. We first get into the different traumas and how it affects their needs and then the big problem of the limited resources this causes.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com &nb...

Send us a Text Message.Hello my dears! First I just wanted to say I hope you had a wonderful holiday season - independent from the form or shape you choose to celebrate it. Though sadly it is that especially in this season we get a lot of dark thoughts - be it because of the darkness or for the chance to reflect what we have, had and could have. Or remind us of “things”. Often we are forced to put on a face - I hope it wasn’t necessary this year. All oft his can make you feel i...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we talk about being empathic is oneself. This is harder than many people believe and most don't even know where to start. We talk about where it comes, about what might help, choices from the past, learned behaviors, perfectionism and being grounded in reality.This is improtant for your healing journey therefor it is important we talk about it. Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com &nbs...

Send us a Text Message.In this episode we will talk about a feeling many have - the feeling of faking the whole ordeal and where It comes from. (Not the imposter syndrome)Ever felt you turning a mouse into an elephant? Felt like "this can't be right - it wasn't THAT bad"? Struggling with coming to terms with your situation?This is a rather common problem and it is important we talk about itTranscript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com&nbs...

Send us a Text Message.In this short episode we get into why the beginning is so hard - be it taking the first step or the uphill battle - and how we go from here.Transcript: www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80 Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.comWebsite: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collectionsupport me:https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconishttps://paypal.me/JohannadraconisDiscord/support group: ht...